- I've been lacking in my blog posts, and a large part of that is due to the fact that I started working. I am a reading tutor at a local elementary school, and I work with a group of awesome 1st graders. I love my job so much. My heart is so invested in those kids, and I love going into working knowing I get to see their smiling faces. I work ten hours a week, and maybe that doesn't seem like much, but it definitely is when it's combined with the fact that I am a full time student, going to a school where I have to go to chapel a certain number of times for credit. I also have homework allllll the time. Midterms are coming up, which means I have huge projects due in every class. Life is crazy. I'm in the process of reading the whole Old Testament, researching the origin of outdoors ministry and the way in which it glorifies God, writing my next 5 minute speech for Public Comm, meeting with a mentor from my major, learning how to speak another language, and going through spiritual formation.
- Life is busy, but it's so awesome. God has been showing up in huge ways in my life, and I am so excited about it. I'm a part of the social justice ministry here on campus, and we're getting ready to go to Compton to minister to prostitutes. We are also taking trips to the Dream Center in LA, and Solidarity in Fullerton. It's awesome to be with people who are letting their hearts be broken for the things that break God's heart. My heart is really invested into this ministry because there is such a need for it in our broken world. Sex trafficking, and human trafficking in general, is taking place here in America, and not enough people know about it. We know other countries are broken, but we often forget to acknowledge just how broken we are here. Human trafficking is happening everywhere, and I am so excited to see where God is taking me so that I can righteously pursue His justice.
- I am also part of soul group here. It is led by two sophomore students who are amazing, and we focus on relationships, identity in Christ, and loving each other in Christ. We drink tea and share our struggles and pray for each other and share truth and love. We meet every Tuesday, and it is an awesome time of building relationships and just growing stronger in my walk with God.
- As I mentioned earlier, here at Biola, you're required to attend chapel about 30 times each semester. I go every Sunday to something known as "Singspiration." It is an hour long time of worship, where a large majority of the campus gathers in the gym to just sing praises to God. It's so cool, and such a great way to start your week. I am in constant pursuit of ways I can shout the worthiness of God, and singspiration is a great time for that. With that being said, this isn't camp. At camp, worship is always awesome, and everyone always throws their hands in the air and proclaims God's worthiness and holiness, and has chills up and down their spine as they feel God moving deeply in them. Worship is always awesome here, but there's not always that "camp high" feeling. In the process of spiritual formation, there are times when you will not get chills up and down your spine as you sing songs to God. There are times that you will feel as if you're alone or worshipping a God that you cannot feel. The truth that has been revealed to me these past few weeks, though, is that God is God all the time. He is always amazing, good, faithful, holy, worthy of praise. We cannot worship God on a feeling. We worship God because of who He is, not how we feel. Sometimes I don't get chills down my spine, but that does not mean that I stop singing for a second. God is God and is worthy of praise, no matter how we may feel. We must learn to worship Him for who He is. Another thing I hear a lot here are comments like "worship was okay this morning" or "Wow that was the best worship I've been to here at Biola." Statements like these do not make sense to me. We are called to worship God. It doesn't matter if the singer sang in the wrong key the whole time, or if they only did hymns and we really like contemporary worship songs better. The Bible doesn't say to pick and choose when we worship God. Worship God for who he is and not for how good you feel the worship team is or how good of a feeling you get while singing.
- In the other chapels I have been attending, God has been calling me to do crazy things. We are all called to go into all the world, proclaiming the good news of Christ. That's a heavy calling, and one that I believe many Christians are shying away from. I have given my desires over to God, and wherever he chooses to call me, that is where I will go. There is this song that I love that says: "Jesus, I believe in you, and I would go to the ends of the earth for you." Is that statement true in your life? I pray that it will always be true in my life.
So that's a jumbled mess of what I've been experiencing and learning. I'm sorry it's not more eloquent. It's 1 in the morning, and I'm about to crash. What I hope you can take away from this is that God is awesome, and He is working in my life and heart in so many ways. I can't explain how deep my love is for Him, or how blessed I am to be at this school. Wow God is good.
-Savannah
P.S. Here are a few prayer requests:
- energy to balance a very busy schedule
- for my seizures to calm down so I can focus on school and not my health issues
- i am desperately praying for deep friendships with girls who will keep me accountable and hang out with me and support me and walk alongside me as we grow together in Christ. it's been hard finding friends
- a continuously broken heart for the things that continuously break the heart of the God I serve. I never want to become calloused to the things of this world. I want to be so broken by them, and thus called to act.
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